i have alot to update but i'll try to summarise everything into short paragraphs.

there's always the ups and downs of life. happiness dont last forever neither do sadness. karma happens no matter where you are. these words are simply repeated wherever i go and sometimes, it do irritates me alot.

i've been going through the good part of life since the beginning of november. (or issit late of october?) and when everything seem to be going on perfectly fine, life turns rot at the wrong time. and they say that this is destined to be? come to think of it, the source of each and every problem may actually come from oneself but when oneself realise that and simply trying to avoid the problem from occuring, it happen far worse than expected! and let me tell you, everything then seems to go bad, one after another. what else can i ask for?

to add to that, they say that when they feel something isnt right, its due to biasness of oneself to another. and human do assume, right? why not just give a fair deal from the beginning? is that so much to ask for?

and to listen and talk with afew different people open up my point of view on life. and yes, it do helps alot. but to talk bout one thing and only listen to one side of the story may make you jump to all kinds of conclusion, which so happen to be not true at all! (i think..) well, it simply depends on what situation you end up in.

i pretty much landed my ass in alot of situation which i feel that i dont have any right to judge anything without figuring out what exactly happen. and let me tell you, to hold the confusion feeling is not the matter but to choose which side is coorect is the burden. like i know who is right... ?

and with afew extra "actors" in the picture will perfectly make the matter much more worse. and to be honest, i do hate to face the consequences.