alot of things happen within one day.
the possibility of difference in someone's behaviour will happen within a wink and its indeed painful to see it passed us without a word of cautious.



before i began my post, to spaghettiku.
i'm really sorry. its not that i'm playing with your feelings or anything. i just dont want to get into another relationship so soon. i know that what i'm gonna say may hurt you but please, do listen alright. i enjoy your company as a friend. i was before and i still am. i lied to you about things that i shouldnt and i'm sorry. i just dont want to have you thinking that i'm like those other girls. i was mad at love that i throw my "tantrums" at you and make you my victim. i didnt expect you to like me, but then i feel that i need to say something before its too late. i hope you understand.. i do enjoy our friendship, and i hope it doesnt end..


i finally get to meet up with spaghetti. and i certainly dont wish to elaborate what happen..
i know you know..


i wanna say these few things to afew people out there..

this girl here (the one in red), is one of my most favourite cousin of all! every moment spent with her is defnitely cherish. and to be honest, nothing can replace her. i love her alot! i really do. she's indeed one of a kind (to me) who would endure a relationship which might sound dead to others. she's strong in facing her problems and tried her very best to help out others in times of need. i admire her love for people and she is certainly a good girl. she is a good friend and a dear cousin. her courage and patience is something that can never be count. oh, how i wish that people will see who you are and not what you are..

and this girl here (the one in black) is so loveeeeee by me!! she's an amazing girl too! her jokes and patience will never run out. and she's the one that make my last year in school go oh-lala.. hehe.. a friend like her is not easy to find. she's my one in a million (: every moment i spent with her is definitely good times, ranging from heartaching to laugh out loud. her presence in my life add another beautiful butterflies and begins a new adventure in our friendship journey. i love her alot and i do hope that our friendship will continue forever.. my only susu (:

and this girl (the one in white) is my one and only dearest bestie. we went through hard times and good times together. i learnt alot about friendship from her and she's the one that i could call true friend. yes, time may have drifted me and her apart but i'm glad that a 4yrs friendship doesnt end. i regret making those mistakes and repeating them again is not an option. i hope that we could still spent time like last time and enjoy the moments we have while we still can. me love you muchy muchy! and thanks for being there for me.

Siti Zubaidah aka Zue (sorry, i dont have our pic together for now!)

she's the sweetest girl i could ever have. thanks for the listening ears and the fun in school. though we only spent 1yr together, but that one yr means alot to me. every minute and moment is defnitely treasure by me and i hope that this marks the beginnng of a long lasting friendship (:

i have others in mind to write.. but i guess that this is the ones that i can write for now. i really appreciate each and everyone of your presence in my life. and i treasure you all so much. but as a saying say," friends do come and go.."

i dont know what's got into me now. i guess the email that i read afew days ago gave a big impact on me.. it tells me to say things that should be said and never keep it for the right time. coz when people wait for the right time, the right time didnt come and let the secret die with them. death is certainly something that happen unexpectedly, and i guess that i dont want to end up regretting for not saying things which i should when i have the time.

and RUDDI, god knows how glad i am to have found you (: