i'm going out later in the afternoon, celebrating independence day with wani and friends. but i have to make sure that before i go out, i do some revision first.

NDP celebration just now was a mundane one. it was such an UNenjoyable event. the singing part was okay but when comes to the "bonding" session where students verses the tchers in the games event, i just sat down by the parade ground watch them play. or shud i say, we camwhore instd. haha.

i know what i did was wrong. i didnt want to hurt you even more. i guess i was concentrating too much on making you happy that i didnt bother to think of anything else that might happen. i agree, i do regret at every decision that i've made. its useless for me to say sorry now. to me, saying sorry to you may sound nothing but like a broken record. i feel so bad right now. i didnt spent my day wisely today. i had it all planned out actually but due to what happened, i spent my time thinking about whats gonna happen next. its been 4mths since we broke up, but i still cant get over you. 3yrs we've been together and i overcome any obstacle that came in between. theres always the ups and downs of things. thats is love. but to end everything like this and to see you doing this to me is killing me even more deep down inside. i feel like i've been lifted up in the air and waiting for the moment to make a choice and land down with my head crashing on the ground. thats what i feel when i try to make a choice and it didnt seem to turn out right. i guess, what i'm trying to say is that, to leave behind a love is such a pain for me. gosh, how i hate this...