a huge sorry to you guys out there. i've been so busy lately & i simply cant find the time to update my blog. though when i have the time, i was rather lazy to switch on the lappy & update. dont mind me while i try to catch things up (:

my last entry was on the 7th April '07. Gosh! that day was my 2yrs 9mths with abg!! however, its already over. i dont know if there is ever gonna be 7th July '07 for me. yes, its all definitely and officially over. this was rather outdated but yah, it ended on this day. it kind of hard to let it go but hey, life still have to move on. we still contact each other but the feeling is kind of weird. to regard a person who was your bf for almost 3yrs as a friend is really damn weird. i dont know if i can go with the flow but nvm, i'll try.

the past few days been going on well for me. i dont wish to share why i broke up with hym. maybe we are not meant for each other. laughters in school really crack me up. it lightens me up too! i dun wish to be an "emo" person who will throw their sadness wherever they go. just think positive bout something & everything will be fine. i dun wish to think so much about heartbreak coz it will just bring my hopes down & not only that, it will really affect me. i dun wish for that to happen to me. life is still young. all i want now is just to enjoy whatever i have & appreaciate it. i still have a long way to go & life still have to move on. whatever happens in the past, whatever mistakes i did, let it be a lesson to learn from & avoid it in future. let me just start afresh.

i really apreaciate olivia's presence. though she might get on my nerve sometimes, but still she is a great friend. thanks for being a great listener n cheering me up all the way. though sometimes we may not agree on certain things but still i had fun. thanks for being there for me. thanks for everything! (:

my friendship with bestie still remain stagnant. maybe one day i might be able to convey to her that she is still my bestie. though ppl may be saying this and that about her & me, still she is my best friend that i will never dread to have. sorry for my past behaviour that might have bring you down. sorry that i wasnt there for you anymore. maybe i was too obsess with other things that i put you on one side. i dont really know what's the problem with us now but all i know is that i neglected you somehow. i'm sorry for what happen. i'm really sorry. though now our friendship seem to loosen, i still regard you as my best friend who i know that will still laugh & cry with me like how we were in the olden days. i know that i am a terrible friend but hey, thanks for everything and sorry for the misery that i give you.

i now realised where i go wrong. maybe by blogging bout something like this wont help me that much but i really want ppl to know that i truly am sorry for what i've done in the past. yes, i know that what happens in the past cannot be undone. but i'm sure that if you learn from the past n understand it, things will get better when you change it. maybe i tried but not hard enough. i know when comes to academic, i'm not that good. but i am still trying,managing every thing at one go. the end of dance is coming soon. i sure hope that it will give me even more time for myself now.

i will get my feet stable on the ground. n change for the better. hopefully things went well.

to ZUE, a very HAPPY BELATED ANNIVERSARY!!